Earlier this evening I was a bit disheartened and discouraged and feeling worn out. But I received a piece of information which helped me toward my self-stated goal (check my profile), my goal to live in objective reality.
See, reality is, there are people in this world who hurt other people, people who lie and cheat and cause all sorts of pain to others. Those people have to hide. Those people have to cover their tracks. Those people have to constantly lie to cover up the lies they already told.
I thank God that I am free.
I only post on this blog when I feel inspired. I wish I could tell you all what inspired me, but I can't. This is not the right time, nor is it the right place.
I am a firm believer now in choices and consequences. Often the choices are ours, but sometimes those choices are based on the choices of others and the consequences of their choices, over which we can have little or no control. I believe the serenity prayer addresses that reality, with a prayer to be able to distinguish what we have control over.
I have learned so much and have gained wisdom I never planned to have, because I seek wisdom. I seek truth. And I try to be honest. I am reaching the point Jennifer Bishop Jenkins (Illinois Victims dot Org) said I probably would, where I think that what I have learned and what I have been through might help someone else. It is my prayer that all his victims will realize their own part in it all, and that they too will be able to live in the objective reality of it all, without it destroying them.
I have been taking time to try to heal. My annulment proceeding is still pending, for the judge granted me the time I needed and when I obtain my annulment of the void marriage to a bigamist, my name will be changed. I had kept this name because Dean West had begged me to. He said our "evil government marriage," performed by a judge wasn't Godly, that we would be married again by a minister of God. In one of the youtube tapes linked to in the left column, from July 2009, he calls me his spiritual wife, as he has called others. I didn't know at the time that he was still married to Sherry West. The marriage is actually legally void and will be proclaimed so by an Illinois court in the coming months. I look forward to that.
I heard from one of his other victims recently via e-mail. In my replies to her I told her I thought she was being selfish in not thinking of the other people he has harmed, and that she should take legal action against him. Here is some of what she said to me:
"... In fact, I told him I found the idea appalling as it was against everything I believe to be true and valuable in life. I told him I thought it was wrong. I know you can imagine what I went through because I wouldn't support his ideas. Like you, I was a victim, not a perpetrator... I'm not interested in expending what energy I have on negative actions Robin. I bought that house for the foundation and that was my mistake. I have no contact with the Dean because I don't want his negativity and craziness in my life. It took me a long time to get over the devastation caused by being involved w/ the Dean regain peace of mind. I'm not going to reopen Pandora's box because my mental health is too valuable and it would be anything but healthy for me. "
Keeping him from hurting others should be a priority to her so I continue to hope that victim comes to the point where she realizes it as such. Justice for what he did to his other victims should matter to her as well. And the fact that he used her to get away with hurting other victims. I hope all his victims realize their responsibility, nevertheless, what I know of their stories will be in my book, and there will be a book. I will boldly tell my story, and theirs, the unvarnished truth, because what he did to me is linked to what he did to them. It was part a sequence of events.
You think you are too smart to be fooled by a sociopath? Think again. I have an IQ around 145 (tested y the school as a child and placed in a gifted program). This should not have happened to me. But it did. And because I am telling the truth, and I can prove it, I am free.
Free to be me!
Some of the people discussed on this blog are or have been supposed directors of what have been purported to be charitable foundations, The Myria Foundation, and The Encyclopedia Foundation, and so are public figures subject to public scrutiny of their character. I was a duped into becoming involved, first as a "director" of The Encyclopedia Foundation and then as a "Founding Director" of The Myria Foundation, which I co-created, verifiable with the Illinois Secretary of State's office. I paid to incorporate The Myria Foundation and I have a legal right to discuss it. This is MY life, and I am a witness to and victim of crimes no one seems to want to do anything about (though last I knew there is an open criminal case against him in Sangamon County). I have over 2 feet of documents and hours of wav. files to back me up and the alleged illegal behaviors I write about here have been reported to the FBI, the Attorney General's office in Illinois, the State's Attorney of Sangamon County and the Springfield Police, the Ashtabula County, Oh, Sheriff and prosecutor, the Sangamon County, IL, Sheriff, and are part of various court records. It is my layman's opinion that Dean West is a sociopath, based on observed and documented behaviors. "Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we practice to deceive." As a good citizen of the USA, I am outraged that Mr. West has been allowed to victimize me. His modus operandi is so clear. He uses his current female victim/s to help him get away with what he did to the last one. The domestic violence community is missing the boat on that aspect: women who stay in abusive relationships are sick. Allowing them to determine public policy and prosecution does not protect the public. Most men who beat women do not murder, they simply move on to the next victim. Most recently, Mr. West was charged with Domestic Violence against yet another female partner/director of the "foundation" (but she didn't show up at the trial and Judge Sanchez wouldn't grant the prosecutor a continuance to find her!) and just prior to that was on probation for resisting a peace officer, which started out as assault of a police officer. I know there is a warrant out for him violating the RO of one of his net victims in Paterson, New Jersey and there is a felony warrant for him out of Sioux Falls, South Dakota right now also for a sixth degree felony, violation of a stalking restraining order. Any questions? Feel free to e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org or call me at 440-285-2648 . (Google "Kathleen Callahan and Ambien" and "Janet Makinen and Ambien" for links with information showing Kathleen Callahan was a public figure prior to becoming a director. I, Robin D. West, am the sole owner of this blog and claim copyrights to it's content and to the intellectual property contained herein.